Jonathan's

2009-09-14T03:38:00.000-07:00

Moved? Not sure.
But Tumblr does not have font size change either!
What the heck is this -.-"
anyway, it's here.

http://lyinginmyarms.tumblr.com/

2009-08-12T06:44:00.000-07:00

The 10th was my 18th Birthday. :D
Went for a buffet with Mom, Sis, and Bi at Amara Hotel.
Ate till almost burst, seriously speaking! O:
After that, came back home and rot. Hass!
That was how I celebrated my 18th Birthday. Cool, ain't? :DD
But it was a nice and good experience at the restaurant we dined in.
My sister asked the Restaurant Manager if there was any privilege, and the RM told her that they don't have anything special for birthdays. And I thought I would expect so.
The next thing that happened was a total surprise!
Just like what we did at Charcoal and Rosette for guest's birthday, the service staff and the RM himself took a slice of cake and came to my table, singing me a Birthday song!!!
That was really embarrassing, although really fun. :X
Well, that's all for that day.

And nowadays I really find myself hating going to school.
It really suck big time.

2009-07-05T09:29:00.001-07:00

So long, so long.. :)
Nothing much during the period that I didn't post.
Been watching Naruto recently, just watched.
Found it quite nice, so been watching every night. Haas.
Anyway, it's going to be 1year and 1month for me and Bi. ;D
That's all for updating. LOL. :D

2009-04-03T05:01:00.000-07:00

my baby is lazy to update his blog.
because he is a PIG :D

*andand, imiss baby loads ooh (:

2009-02-28T08:07:00.000-08:00

Saw this from YuCai's blog.
I find this very, very true.
Read on.

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？
喜歡和愛咫尺千里。

當你喜歡一個人時，
你想和他在一起,
因為他會帶給你快樂。
離開後，
你會想念。
想著想著就會笑，
然後繼續你平靜的生活，
並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你愛一個人時，
你想和他在一起。
那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，
怕他受委屈，
怕他不能好好照顧自己。
離開後，
你也會想念，
想著想著歎一口氣。
'不知他現在過的怎樣？'
然後你繼續你平靜的生活，
希望他早日回到你身邊。

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使。
無所不能，
他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子。
傻傻的，
你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，
只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，
然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人。
你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊,
看他在你面前睡得如此安逸,
甜美毫不設防的樣子。
你會微笑，
會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，
你會生氣。
並且一定要讓他哄著騙著,
逗你笑你才原諒他。

你愛的人傷害了你，
你只會獨自傷心。
因為你怕對他大吼大叫,
會嚇著他。
你憂傷地微笑著，
看著他的眼睛。
一旦發現他的眼裡,
流露出歉意和悔恨，
你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡。
那一刻，
你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人。
你會希望和很多人在一起。
但也許很多年後你才發現，
原來你愛的就只有那麼一個。
就那麼一個，
怎麼都不會變。

你以為把他忘記了，
其實只是忙的沒空想起而已。

對於你喜歡的人，
你關注的是他的優點。
對於你愛的人，
你關注的是他的缺點。
並且，
那些缺點如果無關原則的話，
它們在你眼裡是可愛的。
獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔。
任何愛都從喜歡開始。
當有天你突然發現，
你喜歡的那個人
在你眼中不再完美，
而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般 ,
讓你更加依依不捨,
你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，
你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，
不知道是不是應該祝賀你。

總之，你的感情昇華了,
——
仰慕不是愛。
甚至不是喜歡，
當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，
你們在一起便失去了和諧。

有人說愛一個人很累。
的確是，
因為你想為他承擔。
可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，
當你和愛的人在一起時，
你的感覺就像回家了！

2009-02-14T05:07:00.000-08:00

I stayed home the whole day.

I'm sick, tired, bored.

I hate this home I'm living in.

It's a living hell.

2009-01-02T03:36:00.000-08:00

This year's celebration for New Year was different.
Spent the day and night with my Shatec friends.
Wanted to go and find Melson for his birthday celebration, but couldn't make it because I had the money to go, BUT no money to come back. Sorry, Mel.
So, I spent the whole day at Jaimy's house.
Jaimy, Mirul, Sean, Johnny, Baby, Winnie, Charlene and me, we had BBQ at his house.
Bought stuff after our TopOne KTV session.
Drinks and food, drinks and food. Ate until... omg. -.-"
Haha. Sent Baby home, then went back to find them again.
Pity she couldn't stay with us, sigh. :/
Stayed till 6.30pm the next day, was so tired alr.
Had fun, overall. (:

I don't know why they find this picture good looking.
I find it, fugly. -.-" i meant, only me. ;D

2008-12-09T01:16:00.001-08:00

I miss you, Baby.

2008-12-07T07:02:00.001-08:00

EC is finally over, and I really wanna thank those who came down to support me.
I know the service was lousy, the food not too good for you guys, and I didn't really have the time to entertain you guys, but you guys still paid and support me. Thank all of you soo much. :)
My mom, sis, Raymond, Vincent, Jia Peng, Evelyn, my cousin's friend, Victor and his 4 friends, Melson, Zhe Wei, Ivan, Shandy, Eric, Irvin, Xian Zheng, Ee Ling, Ming Jie, Pei Pei, Wei Jie, Alvinn, Michelle, Natalie, Amanda and Yong Shan. Thank you all so much!

And, I miss Baby loads..

2008-12-06T22:25:00.000-08:00

Dear god,

the only thing I ask of you, is to hold her when I'm not around.
When I'm much too far away.

Dear Baby,

come back to me quickly, please. I miss you.

2008-11-30T06:48:00.001-08:00

I fell in love with this song.. ):

2008-11-26T03:54:00.000-08:00

(Click for bigger image.)

Attached above is the poster for my event.
It has the menu and contact persons, along with date and time.

2008-11-21T09:26:00.001-08:00

Okay, to update about my major project.

Venue: Rosette Restaurant, The SHA Villa
64, Lloyld Road (5min walk from Sommerset MRT Station)
Date: Dec 4th(Thursday), 5th(Friday), 6th(Saturday)
Time: 6pm-8pm & 8.30pm-10.30pm
Price: $28 NETT

Please tag or contact me if you're interested.
I need all of your support!

2008-11-16T03:03:00.000-08:00

Everybody's ATTENTION please!
I'm currently having a major project and it is very crucial to my practicum results.
This project is called Event Catering.
We are to come up with our own menu (along with the kitchen staff), posters, tickets, and most importantly, gather our family and friends to dine at the restaurant we're working at!
It is a 4-course dinner set, consisting of the first course-appetizer, second course-soup, a little sherbet, third course-the main course, and finally the last course-dessert.
Price and dates are not confirmed yet.
If anybody has read this, please support me and my class, because we really need the support given anyone of you.
I'll be updating about the pricing, dates, venue, menu items, everything that you will need to know.
Do come by and support!

2008-11-02T04:54:00.000-08:00

Finally I'm blogging. But I have nothing to update about.
A lot had happened, and days at Charcoal are coming to end very soon.
Rosette will be a nightmare to all of us, I guess.
The following 2weeks will be the period to cherish the last memories at Charcoal.
Even with the HostMentors naggings, SFTs' ridiculous shits, I believe DHM408C will remember Charcoal.

You were never here with me.

2008-09-29T04:15:00.000-07:00

First day at Charcoal.
Tiring day, but overall still fine.
Have to wake up at 4.30am today! O:
Gracious. Crapshit.

Don't you dare go so near her again.
If not, I'll make sure you regret.
And when I say it, I make sure I do it.

2008-09-24T09:23:00.000-07:00

Tried editing photos myself. Comment on them please. ;D
Thank you.

2008-09-23T00:36:00.000-07:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

2008-09-22T22:32:00.000-07:00

Things are so gonna change.
They will.

2008-09-21T20:32:00.001-07:00

Nothing to display.

IT'S JUST SO FUCKING BORED!

2008-09-17T07:06:00.000-07:00

Please don't blame me, if I ever change.
And nobody understands me now. At all.

有一些痛楚看不见泪水
有一种防卫叫做我无所谓
要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切
你不爱我是我舍不得
是我不配为你在狼狈
你不爱我你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费
你不爱我是我舍不得
是我不配和命运作对
你不爱我你真的不爱我
一直以为我是后卫
原来只是那后备

2008-09-16T00:17:00.000-07:00

I feel real empty.

Do you really care?
You seemed to think for yourself, and for yourself only.
You don't seem to care about me.
Maybe I may be paranoid, but in this 3months together, I don't remember you showing me you care.
But I have never said anything, because I love you.
I really love you too much.

2008-09-13T20:05:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow's the start of the first paper.
Hope I will study.
That's all.

Life is taking its toll on me.

2008-09-12T22:03:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, you remind me of her.
And I hate it.
I don't want to see anything from the past.
Why are all of you the same?

2008-09-10T00:44:00.000-07:00

Didn't attend school today, because went for cousin's wedding ceremony.
It was quite fun during the buffet.
Cousins were fooling around, haas!
And the camera man was me, loool.
Wonder when will it be my turn! Haha!

2008-09-08T09:02:00.001-07:00

Happy 3rd Month, Baby. (:

Sorry, Bi. Must have been a torture to you.

2008-09-04T04:13:00.000-07:00

Went to school, had lessons.
Beverage started at 2.30, but today's lesson was Bordeaux Wine Class.
We had 5 wines - 3 reds, 2 whites.
All of them suck, to me though.
I came home and shit, there was still this strong smell of wines.
I was like, what in the effing hell is wrong man.
Lol~

Then as usual, Bi took some pictures.
She seems to be taking pictures everyday now. :O
Holyshit, and I don't know how to smile!

Till here then.

2008-09-03T10:14:00.000-07:00

What have I done wrong in this lifetime to deserve shit?

2008-09-03T09:37:00.001-07:00

I'm feeling, fucked up.
Emptiness fills me, every part of me, taking control of me.

2008-09-03T09:35:00.000-07:00

Changes have occurred.
Things have begun to change.
Everything is changing, and happening too fast.

I can't grasp very detail, I'm losing it.

2008-08-31T00:47:00.001-07:00

Went for a briefing yesterday, at Charcoal.
Hella-licious, bodohs.
Have to be there for 7weeks, SEVEN!
No pay to take some more, it's gonna be FUCKED up.
Seriously.

After that, headed to town with Baby, Winlety, Sissy, Johnny, Yiguang.
Kenneth joined us awhile later.
On the way to town, Bi nothing to do(=P), took some photos.

lazy to post already. -.-"
god damnned the payless attachment.

2008-08-28T08:52:00.000-07:00

Wake M E up when September ends.
Truely, Madly, D E E P L Y.

2008-08-26T08:16:00.000-07:00

Tried to take a picture of L O V E.

2008-08-18T08:23:00.001-07:00

Oh, oh! I finally changed my blogskin after so longgg.
Haas! Thanks to Winlety Chuamukri! :D
Thank you, thank you!
This blogskin is nice, isn't it? Haas.

Well, school's bored.
It is boring me till I don't wanna go to school.
All the tests taken, I hadn't studied for one.
Not even one. This shows how much I care about school stuff.
Fucked up man.
Fuck care.

2008-08-10T23:55:00.000-07:00

I don't know why, but somehow I feel real disappointed.
I know you don't want to quarrel with your mom and dad, and I don't wish to see that too.
But I just can't help feeling so.
I know you want to be a good girl, listening to your parents', and setting a good example to your younger siblings.
But I just can't help feeling so.
We don't have sufficient time together already, yet you can't come out, even on weekends.
I just want to spend a little bit of time with you, just a little will do.
Yet, I have to wait and wait.
I don't know when can I wait till.
I don't want to let you go.
You are really the sweetest girl I've ever been together with.
I don't want to lose you.
I don't wish to lose you.
I want to be with you, forever.

2008-08-09T04:10:00.000-07:00

Got this Quiz from Baby (:

1. the last person to tag you is...
Amanda PNG Li Yi!

2.your relationship with him/her is...
Kuku Sister! :D

3.your first impression of him/her..
Tall?! Mygod.

4.the most memorable thing he/she had done for you...
I don't know leh. Maybe forgot already. :X

5.the most memorable thing that he/she had said to you...
:X i don't knowwww.

6.if he/she become your lover,you will...
I don't think so. :D Kuku Sister only, cause I have a sweety girlfriend already. :D

7. if he/she became your lover,things he/she has to improve on will be..
Already say can't be already loh. -.-"

8.if he/she became your enemy,you will...
Cannot become enemy, I think. She is my Kuku Sister! :X

9.if he/she became your enemy,the reason will be...
Because.. I think no reason. :D

10.the most desired thing you want to do for him/her now...
SEE HER AND TALK TO HER! :O

11.your overall impression of him/her...
Still tall, for a girl. :D

12.how you think people around you will feel about you...
Fucking lazy. -.-"

13.the character you love of yourself is..
I don't know?

14.on the contrary,the characters you hate of yourself are..
Everything. :D

15.the most ideal person you want to be is..
Just be myself, cause I don't give a fuck about what other thinks about me.

16.for the people that care and like you, say something to them..
Thank you. That's all, because I think words can only bring the appreciation this far.

Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.

1. Baby
2. Sister Stephanie
3. Sister Peipei
4. Kuku Amanda :P
5. Winlety Chuamukri :X
6. Johnny
7. Charlene
8. Roy
9. Melson
10. Bonfurt

18. who is no 6 having relationship with?
No one, for now.

19. is no 9 a male or female?
Male, but GAY! :D

20.if no 7 and 10 are together,will it be a good thing?
They don't know each other laaa. Alamak.

22.what is no 2 studying about?
She is at MI.

23. when was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
Very, very long agoooooooo. :O

24.what kind of music band does no 8 like?
As long as it's not noisy, he likes it.

25. does no 1 have any siblings?
Yes. 1 little brother, 1 younger sister. (:

26.will you woo no 3?
She is my brother's girlfriend!

27.how about no.7?
Nope, she is who my brother wants to jio. :X

28.is no 4 single?
I think so? I haven't met her for a long, long timeeee!

29.what is the surname of no 5?
Chua!

30.what's the hobby of number 4?
Volleyball :D

31.does no 5 and 9 get along well?
They don't know each other laa.

32.where is no 2 studyin at?
I thought asked already? Studying at MI.

33.talk something casually about no 1.
She is my sweet, 'little' girlfriend. :P

34.have you tried developing feelings for no 8?
I ain't no fucking gay shit!

35.where does no 9 live at?
Bukit Panjang, Farjar Road.

36.wad colour does no 4 like?
Green?

37.are no 5 and 1 best friends?
Oh yes, they sure are!

38.does no 7 like no 2?
They don't know each other..

39.how did you get to noe no 2?
West Spring Secondary School, Class of 2B, 3C, & 4C. :D

40.does no 1 have any pets?
Hamsters which she adores. :D

41.is no 7 the sexiest person in the world?
She's too skinny to be sexy. :X But attractive. :D

2008-08-09T03:03:00.000-07:00

Well, well. Yesterday was the 8th of August 2008. :D
080808. My 2nd month with Baby. ;D
I love you, bi.

Today's the 090808.
IT'S THE NATION'S BIRTHDAY!
It's National Day. Haha!
I stayed home the whole day though. Kuku!

Tmr's the 100808.
And guess what..?
IT'S MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!
:D Hahahahaha!

That's all. -.-"
Or else, complaints about no updating. KUKU. xD

2008-07-31T05:31:00.001-07:00

School's getting more bored as every day passes by.
It's coming to be a bore to go to school.
Teachers had been alright, but the contents which they are teaching make me sick.
Especially the one teaching MIS. She sucks balls.
Well, class is still alright. Except for some irritating shit.
I don't know why, but no matter what that person does, I get irritated.
I don't mean to dislike that person, but it still gets on my nerves.
Simple as so, irritable.
Come to think of it, I think it is useless to even mention that person.
Family has been high and low, nothing much too.
As for my relationship, I guess everything's fine. For you, my love. <3

2008-07-28T07:04:00.001-07:00

I'm so Fucked.
Hard.

2008-07-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

Forever Love.
She is my Love. ;D

2008-07-08T08:40:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
It's the site for doing the quiz. (:

2008-07-01T09:28:00.000-07:00

It's my BabyLove. ;D

2008-06-25T09:00:00.000-07:00

What Jonathan Ng Teck Hui Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.

You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-06-22T06:47:00.000-07:00

I WANT A LAMBORGHINI AFTER I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST! :D
Hahas :X
I am dreaming~ :D

2008-06-05T09:37:00.000-07:00

My Best Friend Forever, Charlene.
You'll be just fine. Do not give up, my friend.
You'll live on.
Don't forget our Forever.

2008-06-05T08:49:00.000-07:00

BABY's loved! :D

2008-05-14T06:36:00.000-07:00

Q1. What do you enjoy most?
- EMO-ing. :D
Q2. Who's more important to you?
- I don't knowwwwww.
Q3. Who is the person you trust most?
- Sister Stephanie. :D
Q4. Do you have enough confidence?
- Yes, I always do. :D
Q5. If you have a dream come true, what will it be?
- Only that one thing. (:
Q6. How do you define love?
- Love is happiness, love is fun, and love is LOVE. :D
Q7. What is your goal this year?
- I don't think I have one. :D
Q8. Do you believe in eternal love?
- I have always believed so. (:
Q9. Have you broke someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
- Nope. Or I guess so.
Q10. What feeling do you loved most?
- Being loved by the one you love. :D
Q11. What are you doing this quiz for?
- My friend asked me to do so? -.-"
Q12. What feeling do you hate most?
- Maligned.
Q13. Do you cherish all friendship of yours?
- Every. :D
Q14. Do you believe in god?
- Yes, I do. BUDDHIST :D
Q15. What do you tink is most impt in ur life?
- Family, Friends, Love. They are all the same. (:
Q16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
- Her, She, &Her.
Q17. Anyone you like/dislike now?
- I don't dislike people. I hate them. :D
Q18. What would you like to do now?
- Love her. :D
Q19. Do you deserve love?
- I don't wanna yes, but I wanna say yes. :B
Q20. If you can turn back time, when will it be? whys?
- To the time when I was still innocent and adorable. :P Because those were the times my life was the happiest. :D
Q21. Will you want your soul mate to die for you? ):
- I don't have one. Even if I have one, I won't let her die for me. :/

Instructions: Remove one qn from above and add in your personal qn.

tag 8 people::
(ppl, please spent some time to do tis quiz)

- God damn. Bloody one hell of a fool. I don't have any contacts for blogging laa!

2008-05-14T04:11:00.000-07:00

We started as friends, but something happened inside me.
You don't ever notice me turning on my charm, or wonder why I am always where you are.
I've made it so obvious, done almost everything but tell you.
I'm not so good with words, and since you never notice the way that we belong.
I will say it in a love song.
You've never ever notice why I stare at you when we we're alone.
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone.
You're my very first thought in the morning, and my last at nightfall.
You are the love that came without warning.
I need you, and I want you to know.
I'll sing untill you're holding me.

从没有为了谁, 不顾安危付出一切
好的男人有那么多,少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞,也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活, 就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候, 我的温柔陪你度过

I keep dreaming you'll be with me, and you'll never go.
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore.
Cause with you, I'd withstand all hell to hold your hand.
I'd give anything, but I won't give up.
Cause I'm not leaving.
Hold onto me and never let me go.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
watch you smile while you're sleeping.
When every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure.
I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep.
Cause I'd miss you, girl.
Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating.
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming, wondering if it's me you're dreaming.
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever.
I just wanna be with you, right here with you, just like this.
I just wanna hold you close, and feel your hear so close to mine, and just stay here in this moment for the rest of time.

I've been looking for that someone, I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you.
When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes.
Gonna tell you that I love you, in the best way I can.
I can't take a day without you here.
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When I see your smile, tears roll down my face.
I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
I can show you I'll be the one.
Cause you're my true love, my whole heart.
Please don't throw that away.
Cause I'm here for you.
Please don't walk away, and please tell me you'll stay.

2008-05-07T04:48:00.000-07:00

I miss you.
And I really do..

How do I make you forget him?
I want to do so, because..
I think I have fallen for you.
<3s, you.

2008-05-06T05:38:00.001-07:00

Lets101 Quizzes - Blog Quizzes

TRUE! xDD
hahaa!

2008-05-06T05:35:00.000-07:00

Addictive content in my personality is 78%

Beware!!! people easily get addicted to me

Lets101 - Dating Free Online

LOL! another lame test. xD

2008-05-06T05:29:00.001-07:00

Lets101 - Free Dating Site

This is so damn funny. -.-"
LAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

2008-05-02T22:42:00.000-07:00

77 words

Speed test

lol, this is one lame test. -.-"

anyway, it has been sooooooooooooo effing long since i last posted.
damn lazy to do so, because there's apparently nothing to post about.
just school, play and smoke. :D
nothing much lo~
boring.
well, in a new school alr. get to know many friends.
and my class, DHM 408C, is cool. :D
i love my class, hahas.

and sissy, if you see this.
don't think so much. be happy&smile. :D
X.iao S.ha G.ua =P

2008-04-12T10:45:00.000-07:00

When You're Gone

by Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

2008-04-12T10:44:00.000-07:00

Who Will I Run To?

by Kiley Dean

You were the one who I could tell my deapest fears
And you were the one who always wiped away my tears
When he hurt me you were my prince straight from above
Like a fool I never saw you were falling in love
So now I've lost everything
cause now you say you're gone forever more
So who will I..

Who will I run to?
Who will I turn to?
Now that you left me behind
Who will dry my tears when I cry
Who will I run to?
And who will I turn to?
Now that you're not here in my life

You were the one I took for granted all those years Ooh..
And you were the one I should have known, It was so clear
How could I be so blind not to see what's before my eyes
I'll get you back here with me, if it takes the rest of my life
Cause I would do anything
Cause I want you back forever more
So who will I...

I would gladly journey across the deep blue sea
If I could know that I would have you here with me Ooh..
I realized that I was blind but now I finally see
I need you back here in my life
Ooh baby can't it be

Who will be there for me
Who's gonna rescue me
Who's gonna share my dreams
Who's gonna mend this broken heart..Ooh baby

2008-03-11T02:48:00.003-07:00

绝口不提爱你.
忘了怎么去爱.

2008-03-10T11:10:00.001-07:00

days are so boring.
i only smoke all day long..
it's a bore to do the same things e.ve.ry day.
LIFE IS BORING. -.-"

2008-03-07T03:52:00.001-08:00

SMOKE! ;D

2008-02-19T05:55:00.000-08:00

Finally, I've got my new computer!
After waiting for such a long, long time. -.-"
Back in action once again! Hahaa.
Holidays had been a bore. =/
Been posted to NgeeAnn Poly, Electrical Engineering.
Kinda sad, cause I got no interest in studying anymore, seriously..
Well, need to wait for the date for school to start. Is it? (Someone tell me please!)
Till here then.. (:

Changed.

2007-12-17T07:39:00.000-08:00

Been to Genting the last four days. It was hell boring! -.-
Adults do nothing but gamble and lose all their money. STUPID!
My cousins and friends, along with me, smoked and go around walking only.
There was simply nothing to do there.
Well, just reached home and I'm here blogging. (:
So long since I last used computer.
Before going to Genting, I stayed at my aunt's house for 1week, and before that, 3days at cousin's 21st chalet.
Never came home for 2weeks already. =D
First time yooooo! xD

2007-12-01T21:37:00.000-08:00

小学篱芭旁的蒲公英　
是记忆里有味道的风景
午睡操场传来蝉的声音　
多少年后也还是很好听

将愿望折纸飞机寄成信　
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币　
却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定　
那样清晰　打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行　
是你如今　唯一坚持的任性

在走廊上罚站打手心　
我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓
我去到哪里你都跟很紧　
很多的梦在等待着进行

一起长大的约定　
那样真心　
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清　
你是友情还是错过的爱情

我已经分不清, 你是友情还是错过的爱情.
I've been missing you.. =/

2007-11-21T04:15:00.000-08:00

It's been so long. Life is still going on as normal - boring. -.-
Went to school's prom night. It was still okay after all.
After that, headed to Cine and slacked for awhile. Then went to Timah for pool.
Lol, stayed till morning 7plus then went home. Tiring..
Working soon, going interview tmr already. OMG -.-
NO MONEY! =O

2007-11-08T07:41:00.000-08:00

I still remembered it, as if it was only yesterday. 14th February, courage took me away. But I doubt you will ever remember. And so, I've never talked to you about it anymore.
I miss you, like how I used to. I've never forgotten you, keeping inside me up till now.
But it's meaningless, after all. You've never seemed to notice me, never wonder why I am always where you are.
Just wanna say, takecare..

2007-11-04T19:38:00.000-08:00

Wishing Lydia. Tan Zhiqian a very Happy Birthday! ;D
生日快乐，孙孙！:D
长大了，应该知道什么该想，什么不该想了！(:
Take care!

2007-11-03T05:44:00.001-07:00

Cigarettes!
I am going to SMOKE! =D
It's healthy!
But not recommended for everyone! =P

2007-10-31T05:30:00.000-07:00

Now Playing: Obvious, by Westlife

We started as friends.
But something happened inside me.
Now I'm reading into everything.
But there's no sign of you hearing the lightning, baby.
You don't ever notice me turning on my charm.
Or wonder why I'm always where you are.
I've done everything.
Done everything but sing it.
I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong.
I'm not so good with words.
And since you never notice, the way that we belong.
I'll say it in a love song.

I've heard you talk about, how you want someone just like me.
But every time I ask you out, we never move pass friendly.
And you don't ever notice how I stare at you when we're alone.
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone.

I've made it obvious.
Done everything but sing it.
I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong.
I'm not so good with words.
And since you never notice the way that we belong,
I'll say it in a love song.

You are my very first thought in the morning.
And my last at nightfall.
You are the love that came without warning.
I need you, I want you to know.

I've made it so obvious.
Done everything but sing it.
I've crushed on you so long.
I'm not so good with words.
And since you never notice, the way that we belong.
I'll sing it in a love song.

And sing it until the day you're holding me.
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong.
I more than adore you but since you never seem to see.

But you never seem to see..
I'll say it in this love song.

Faced with exams, and I ain't even trying to study.
Feeling so fucked up with myself right now.
I am trouble free now, but mom said I look as if I have a lot of problems.
She even said she saw me sighing by myself.
Haha, as observant as a mother can be. That's my mom! ;D
I don't know if I am really facing any troubles now, but I do sure feel quite trapped and empty.
And, oh my goddess! My eyebags are sure huge! My dark rings too! -.-
Haven't been sleeping much recently.
Haha, rather fun.
Nothing to continue anymore.
But I sure wanna do well for my exams. =/

Baby, I need you..
But have you ever noticed? ):

2007-10-27T03:48:00.000-07:00

OH MY HOLY MAMA!
So long since I last played and stayed out till the wee hours of the morning!
Came back home at 6.30am this morning.
Went B.Timah to look for them.
Stayed till 12plus, and then headed to Alvinn's house.
Had fun there with Wilson, Jensen, Daryl and Alvinn.
Weijie also sleeping. -.-
Anyway, asked Wilson and Daryl to take cab home, yet they asked me to walk home.
In the end, 2 outvoted me. And we walked, it was sure hell a long way man!
Insufficient sleep, woke up at 10 and headed to B.Panjang CC to play basketball.
Darn, played till 5 man!
FREAKING tired! Oh hell.. -.-
I want to study! But nobody's accompanying me..
Oh my holy shit.
Math and English papers this coming monday.
WISH ME LUCK! -.-

zhiqian, update liao hor. everyday leh, happy mah? xD lmao.

2007-10-26T05:04:00.000-07:00

Had my first ever 'O' Level Examination paper yesterday.
Pure Geography, it was still alright.
But I do feel that I could have done better with revision.
Well, today's History paper was an absolutely lousy paper.
Forgot my factors causing the Revolution of 1911 in China.
It was bull shit man! -.-
Well, it's over already, so no point brooding over it now.
Gotta work hard for the other subjects like how you girls said it.

hey zhiqian! i update already okays?! but you're the one who never come and visit my blog! =P

2007-10-23T08:28:00.000-07:00

An emptiness burst out of me.
It was terrible.
Like a lion just released from its cage.
A tear just flowed out, like that.
And I'm wondering why, only a tear flowed out.

'Emotions are always a part of life.
Wanting to control and being able to control is two different matters.'
Zhiqian, this for you. (:

2007-10-23T04:47:00.000-07:00

Why Do I Love You?
By: Westlife

Suddenly she's leaving
Suddenly the promise of love has gone
Suddenly breathing seems so hard to do

Carefully you planned it
I got to know just a minute too late oh girl
Now I understand it
All the times we, made love together
Baby you were thinking of him

Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do?
Like I always do
You should have told me
Why did you have to be untrue... ?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do?

Ain't gonna show no weakness
I'm gonna smile and tell the whole world I'm fine
I'm gonna keep my senses
But deep down where no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you

Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do?
Like I always do
You should have told me
Why did you have to be untrue... ?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do?

Can't go back
Can't erase
Baby your smiling face
Oh no, I can't think of nothing else
but you (else but you) suddenly

Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do?
Like I always do
You should have told me
Why did you have to be untrue... ?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do?

Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do?
Like I always do
You should have told me
Why did you have to be untrue.... ?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do?

2007-10-23T04:44:00.000-07:00

过火
歌手：张信哲

是否对你承诺了太多
还是我原本给的就不够
你始终有千万种理由
我一直都跟随你的感受
让你疯让你去放纵
以为你有天会感动
关于流言我装作无动于衷

直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁
既然爱难分是非
就别逃避勇敢面对
给了他的心
你是否能够要得回
怎么忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞
才会陷入感情漩涡
怎么忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞伤痛我背

2007-10-23T04:41:00.000-07:00

有一种爱叫做放手

歌手：阿木

如果两个人的天堂
象是温馨的墙
囚禁你的梦想
幸福是否象是一扇铁窗
候鸟失去了南方

如果你对天空向往
渴望一双翅膀
放手让你飞翔
你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰
听从凋谢的时光

浪漫如果变成了牵绊
我愿为你选择回到孤单
缠绵如果变成了锁链
抛开诺言
有一种爱叫做放手
为爱放弃天长地久
我们相守若让你付出所有
让真爱带我走
有一种爱叫做放手
为爱结束天长地久
我的离去若让你拥有所有
让真爱带我走说分手

为了你失去你
狠心扮演伤害你
为了你离开你
永远不分的离去

2007-10-23T04:40:00.001-07:00

In This Life
By: Ronan Keating

For all I've been blessed with in this life,
There was an emptyness in me,
I was imprisoned by the power of gold,
With one honest touch you set me free.

Chorus
Let the world stop turning,
Let the sun stop burning,
Let them tell you love's not worth going through,
If it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart,
The only dream that mattered had come true,
In this life, I was loved by you

For every mountain I have climbed,
And every raging river crossed,
You were the treasure longed to find,
Without your love I would be lost.

Let the world stop turning,
Let the sun stop burning,
Let them tell you love's not worth going through,
If it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart,
The only dream that mattered had come true,
In this life, I was loved by you.

In this life I was loved by you.

2007-10-23T04:35:00.000-07:00

Mary Jane
By: The Click Five

I didn't cry the day you moved away
I didn't think that I could feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you
Whatever happened to our innocence
And the somethin' that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothings gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary jane
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh

I need to wake up from this state of mind
The situation is the same kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head
Would you catch me if I had to fall
Would you even find the time for that at all
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothings gonna change
Time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary jane
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh

Cause time has taken back
Everything I thought we had

Mary Jane..

Could it be
Nothings gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary jane
Ooh ooh
Oh whatever happened to
Ooh ooh
Mary jane

2007-10-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

I Don't Love You

by My Chemical Romance

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

2007-10-17T07:56:00.000-07:00

Heaven Knows - Rick Prince

She's always on my mind.
From the time i wake up, till i close my eyes.
She's everywhere i go.
She's all i know.
Though she's so far away, it just keeps getting stronger everyday.
And even now she's gone, i'm still holding on.

So tell me where do i start, cause it's breaking my heart.
Don't wanna let her go.

Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find their way, only heaven knows.
And all i can do, is hope and pray.
Cause heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me, that if you really love her.
You've gotta set her free.
And if she returns in time, I'll know she's mine.
But telll me where do i start.
cause its breaking my heart. 
Don't wanna let her go.

Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find their way, but only heaven knows.
And all i can do, is hope and pray.
cause heaven knows.

Why i live in despair, cause wide awake or dreaming.
I know she's never there.
And all the time i act so brave, i'm shaking inside.
Why does it hurt me so ?

Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find their way, but only heaven knows.
And all i can do, is hope and pray.
cause heaven knows.

Heaven knows.
Heaven knows.

2007-10-12T02:49:00.001-07:00

You Scored a 90% which means you are a ....

You are a passionate lover. You are the complete package and you recieve the complete package. You are NOT selfish and yet you still don't get walked all over. You're what everyone looks for and you show the opposite sex what it is like to truly be loved. Anyone who gets you is truly lucky.

What kind of lover are you
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2007-10-02T03:31:00.001-07:00

Smile on, everybody. (:

2007-09-07T09:23:00.000-07:00

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
It's the last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

If your hearts not in it, for real
Please dont try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
There's nothing I can do
To stop from losing you
I can't make you change your mind
If your heart's not in it

If your hearts not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

2007-08-06T23:30:00.000-07:00

A very Happy Birthday to Stephanie Lin Xue Qi! :D All the best to you! 16 years old! Hahaa. Cool uh? You can finally watch NC16 shows. =P Anyway, my birthday is coming this 10th! weee~ officially 16 finally. hahaaa.

let's talk about life these few weeks. ain't good, have been facing problems in school, family and relationship.
tsk, but how? process of learning and parts and parcels of life, isn't it? face it man. :D
and omfg, VIE is coming so soon! nervous? scared? not me.. but i don't know why. so strange, isn't it?

2007-07-31T07:12:00.001-07:00

Sister(: i look so f.ugly here!

Memories are sometimes more precious than possessions. (:

Teach me how to hang on..

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Well, created this new blog. Hasn't been able to cope really well this few weeks. It's so boring, really. School simply sucks, and it turns my world around. Been sick last week, damn! 4 GOOD years since I last fell sick, and the feeling I tell you, it isn't f.good. She cried that night.. I remembered it was last Tuesday. 'bu yao zhe yang leh, wo kan le hen xin tong eh,' she told me and burst out crying. It was, of course, a very stunned moment for me. She cares so much, yet at times.. I just can't stop thinking. Anyway, my VIE is here soon.. 'Very Important Exams'. LOL. Eighty plus more days, and I will be free from these bullcrap. Great for me!
Today didn't went school, precious came to my house because she didn't want to go either. So we spent our whole morning in my house. Thoroughly enjoyed myself, I say. How long do we get together like this? That's what I say, it isn't nice spending very little time with my girlfriend.
Well, shall stop here afterall.